| | That's what I believe life is, one GIANT freakin course on how to grow up and be ready for the day that He comes back. So in actuality, it's one GIANT patience test. I mean, first you gotta wait 9 months in the womb, then you come out, and you begin to die. But you usually don't die right away, you have to wait to walk, wait to talk, wait to go to school, wait to get out of school, wait to get out of grad school, wait for the right job, wait to get married, wait to have kids, wait to send your kids to school, wait to send your kids to college, wait for them to move out, wait for them to get married, wait for grandkids, wait for retirement, wait and see if you failed at life, wait till death, for us Christians, after death, we still have to wait for Christs' return for our glorified bodies. It's one GIANT waiting game. Each step, each phase, is unique, is great, but nonetheless you wait. We might as well start working on our patience even before we work on loving others. So I am waiting, and learning to wait. Waiting for myself to stop doubting myself, waiting for myself to grow up, waiting for my Youth Group and College group to mature, waiting for a chance to go to seminary, waiting to earn the trust of others, waiting for God's timing, waiting for this stage to end and enter the next, waiting to learn to care for others, waiting to be cared for by others, wait wait wait wait wait... and amidst all this i stumble and learn and stubmle some more and learn some more. God is good, God is faithful.
I'm fiercely loyal, to my God, to my friends, so sometimes, i over analyze situations, and though i try to be the best friend i can be, and put other peoples needs above my own, often times, i am misjudged for my actions. I really don't know what to do. I am called to love others, but my love is called into question, when in reality, they should be questioning themselves... are they loving at all! I am at my ropes end... I have no more power of my own... God.... take me to the place where I belong... if for me to stay, then change my heart, soul, mind, and attitude. Grant me peace and wisdom, understanding and patience as I wait on you...
You know how they say you never know what you got till it's gone... well, I know what I'm missing since it's gone... yet I will praise the Lord, and to God be the glory.
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